For years, I’ve been in a constant battle with myself—
Feeling guilty for hurting the people I love.
Feeling guilty for falling in love.
Feeling guilty for failing in life.
I started to believe I wasn’t worthy.
Not worthy of love.
Not worthy of the care people gave me.
Not worthy of praise—
I felt like an impostor.
Not worthy of compliments—
I didn’t feel beautiful.
I thought my worth was tied to achievement.
That only if I achieved something big,
I would deserve love.
I would deserve care.
I would deserve praise.
I would deserve kindness.
So I chased it all these years.
I tried to be worthy.
I tried to be kind because I knew how cruel the world could be.
I tried to be understanding even when I didn’t understand at all.
And yet, here I am—
alone.
Accused of being too much.
Being too sensitive.
Being too selfish.
But somewhere along the way,
I realized something—
I was never the problem.
I was never too much.
I was simply giving my love to the wrong places.
Hoping others would give it back.
So today, I stop.
I stop chasing love.
I stop chasing validation.
I stop waiting for people to care.
Because love isn’t something I need to earn.
It’s something I already deserve—
From myself.
It’s not that I won’t love others or be there for them—
I always will.
That’s who I am.
Kindness is woven into me,
and I can’t be anything else.
But kindness doesn’t mean breaking myself for others.
So I have built a wall,
not to keep love out,
But to keep my peace in.
A space that belongs to me.
A space where no one can take more than I can give.
Because I am a traveler,
And a traveler has no home—
except the one they build within themselves.
So I will love myself.
I will protect myself.
I will be my own safe place.
I will be the best version of myself—
Unapologetic.
Unyielding.
Unstoppable.
And Untamed.
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